Session: June 19th, 2023

I got to talk to Father. Kind of. I used one of the Sendings that Saanes put in the blood shard for me, honestly not thinking it would go through. I told him we were coming to save him and that I loved him. Not only did it go through, but he even responded. This being said, he told me not to come because it was too dangerous and that was it. I was hoping there might be more. Still, it was really good to hear his voice. It's been so long. I still have one Sending left, so I'll probably use it tonight just to reassure him that we know what we're getting into.
 
Our Scrying however, did not go nearly as successfully. It worked, technically speaking. We were able to see the party. But all I got to see was way too much of Mother making out with who I can only assume was Dan'or'avil. He noticed the Scrying somehow. Pointed it out to her. What gets me is that they didn't even know it was me watching - and they still chose to make out in front of it. Disgusting. Even more, if he's able to see Scrying...is that a new thing? Was this the first time he's noticed? Or did he know we were watching the other two times we've Scried on him as well and acted accordingly? It's frustrating always being one step behind him. Even more frustrating is how easily Dan'or'avil seems to be able to move around. He came here from the island, he went to a party in the human lands with my mother, he has to be back in the city in two days for the execution. How is he moving around so easily??
 
And on that note, I can't believe the execution is only two days away now. In two days we're going to know how our strategies might have to change completely. There is the slightest, barest chance that they catch Dan'or'avil. That is obviously best case scenario. But my fear is one of two things will happen. One, he'll somehow figure out almost immediately that the Eirlyssia there is a fake, and he'll actually get her executed. Two, he'll get the fake Eirlyssia, and deliver her to my Mother. From there it's only a matter of time until Mother realizes that she's not the real Eirlyssia, because G'Vath'Haz would know instantly if he went into her mind. Either way, both of those result in Dan'or'avil knowing that I'm still out there, and most likely, instantly coming after our group. While the fake Eirlyssia is in custody, it's easy enough to continue to travel with the group and be less conspicuous as a random half-elf. As soon as he knows he doesn't have the real Eirlyssia, it becomes way too suspicious that there just happens to be a random minotaur and half-elf travelling with them. We'll be outed almost immediately, and I'm not sure what we do then.
 
Also on the topic of the execution, I made a realization. Malzod offered up Mud and Zun to Courmivoun as his payment for getting an audience with Count Peyton. Zun is set to be executed in two days. So either Malzod doesn't know that Zun is up for execution, or he's swindling Courmivoun. Also odd is that his audience with Count Peyton is on the same day as the execution. Which means if Malzod was swindling Courmivoun, had that been the real Zun, it would have been too late for Courmivoun to do anything about it. Just very curious. I don't know what it means, or if a lot of it is coincidence. But I don't like it.
 
Thank goodness for simple distractions on board so I don't spend all my time thinking about this. The group has really decided to go after Cor'nan, and while I find it hilarious, after talking with Ny'ell today, perhaps it's not working out as much as we wanted it to. Especially Corin's complete lack of subtlety. She's such a lovely person, and I don't want her to get hurt in this. While I had a slight agenda in talking with her today, I really did enjoy it. She seems really genuine, and really kind. I legitimately want to make sure she's okay. I like spending time with her; she feels like a breath of fresh air. Normally lying doesn't really bother me, but it bothers me with Ny'ell. I want to try to be as truthful as possible so I can actual maintain a female friendship for once. I had forgotten how strange and awkward it feels to try to actively make friends with someone. I will have to work on it.
 
The other thing I need to work on is Mortalis. I need to find out how much he heard from our discovery about him this morning. I assume he heard it all, which is fine. It means I can reassure him that if the gods weren't able to destroy him, most likely my party, much as they threaten it, will not be able to do so easily either. I also desperately want to know if he has powers locked away. If so, we need to figure out how to access those before we get to Mother's. I also want to practice having him leave the scythe tonight. I know we don't have a living target to practice on, but I'm hoping we can do it nonetheless. If I can essentially project him...it really creates a host of new possibilities. And maybe some possibilities that don't involve him taking full control of me. Much as I am loathe to agree with my party on this one, I would like to be able to maintain bodily autonomy. Fighting my Mother won't be the same if I can't talk to her. I need to be able to see the look on her face as she dies, and speak the final words she'll ever hear.