Session: April 11, 2023.

It turned out to be an illuminating evening. And much less strenuous than the rest of the day, at least. We actually got to have some downtime, and, thanks to Corin's spell skill, remove whatever curse the Black King had put on us that was bogging us down. Felt very nice to be free of that weight.
 
Garrin came to visit too, which was good. He didn't elaborate too much on what had happened inside the temple, but he did say that something or someone very powerful from the inside breached a bunch of their wards. They don't know who it was, other than obviously a traitor of some kind. Nothing seems to have been taken, but he did note they'd gained access to the records room - the one that contained notes on Zun and my current state/plan for our "execution". He said he didn't think anyone actually did access them, but that it was a possibility. I'll admit, that concerns me a little. Whoever broke in would undoubtedly be from the Cult, and therefore loyal to Dan'or'avil. If Dan'or'avil gets word that the real Eirlyssia isn't actually going to be at the execution...that could be disastrous for us. Or, for me at least. If he kidnaps me and takes me back to my mother, any chance of a surprise attack is gone. It doesn't make it impossible, but it would severely complicate things.
 
Garrin also said he didn't know much about the Black King, only the same things we'd heard. I don't think he knew what to do when we told him that we'd fought and won against Yll'Sid. I have a funny feeling that we throw a lot of people off. Other than that, he said that a crystal ball for Saanes and an item for Corin should be arriving tomorrow, and that we won't be able to get a hold of Garrin before we leave, but that he'd try to include a sending stone so we can contact him while we're gone.
 
Our fitting got postponed because of the goings-on at the temple, which makes me curious as to how those two things are connected, but whatever. So long as we get Elegant some really great clothing so he can outshine Hertez, we'll be fine.
 
The real challenge of the night was once again the rift that feels like it's forming between Zun and Mortalis (and possibly myself). I wanted to talk to Mortalis about Zun saying he didn't want to give me back control after the fight. Which, Mortalis did admit he didn't want to give me back control, but that he would because of our pact. There was something behind that, something I don't entirely like. But whether he was saying that because he is actually bound to give me back control, or he's just doing it because he's being honourable, I'm not sure. It concerns me a little.
 
Interestingly though, he thinks that giving him a mortal body to use might actually work. He wants to experiment with someone soon, and I'm thinking, we're about to kill Malzod, so...might be the perfect opportunity. I want to have this sorted out before I get to my mother, because I'd love to be able to access Mortalis's full range of power, but without it coming at the cost of my autonomy. I want to be able to enjoy the look on her face when she sees that she's lost. I want to be able to say the crushing words as she dies. I can't do that if I don't have control of my body. Buuuuut if Mortalis could just be in someone else's body...it could work. I have a feeling that people aren't going to like giving Mortalis a physical body though. It's the one thing that makes me hesitate about trying it tomorrow. I don't want to make enemies of my own party. I like them very much. They just...don't understand.
 
Especially Zun. When we found out yesterday that there were good souls and children inside Mortalis, he kind of flipped out. In his very chill sounding, judgy Zun sort of way. Obviously, the news distressed me. I don't condone killing children. The entire REASON my father got captured was because I refused to kill a child G'Vath'Haz tried to force me to. But...these children are already dead. There is nothing that I can do about that. What's done is done. And yes, they are suffering, and I HATE that. But Mortalis even said time moves different in there. Will they really know if I release them now versus in a month after I've rescued my father? Because that's the thing. I can't...I can't do this without Mortalis. I need the power that he has to be able to save my father and hopefully defeat my mother once and for all. MAYBE once he is safe and she is gone, could I consider destroying Mortalis in order to, hopefully, release the souls of all those children. But that's what they don't understand. As a warlock, without a patron, I am powerless. I have not worked this hard, and sacrificed this much, to just turn in now. I hate the rift that it's forming in the group, but they just don't understand. Obviously I want to help these children, but my father's rescue comes first. Zun needs to step off.