Do you ever spend most of your life thinking something is one way, and then you suddenly find out you were very, very wrong? That's what the conversation with Father felt like. It was both a relief and revelation. He told me how he met Mother and why he stayed...I'd never heard that part of the story before. Even when we were on the run together, he didn't mention it. More importantly, he didn't mention I had a half-sibling. The entire time we were on the run, or most of it anyway, he knew. He knew she existed and he didn't tell me.
Apparently he came to town as a flower salesman. Mother acted taken with him, and he bought it. By the time he realized, it was too late. Like she does, she ensnared him, and then threatened his friends when he tried to leave. More than threaten, I suppose - he said she killed one of his friends. He said he tried to give me a good life, and he's not wrong. He did his best, that much was obvious to me, even as a child. I could always tell that things were...strained...between the two of them. Mother was vicious to him sometimes...but he was never vicious back. He was always kind or apathetic to her, even when I wished sometimes that he would fight back.
He said he got a woman from his town pregnant. That's who Lanea's mother is. Who Father truly loves. Or did, anyway. I didn't get a chance to ask him if he still loves her. I don't think Mother has any idea that Lanea exists. Certainly right now, Mother thinks that she's me. Which is another question I want to ask her - why pretend to be me? And why get Lodern's attention for it?
The things that Elegant reported back about Lanea and her conversations at the Wailing Shack leave me with some concerns. I need to know who her patron is. If it's G'Vath'Haz - we've immediately got a problem. I also need to make sure that her plan involves more than just burning the manor to the ground. There are too many things my party needs to accomplish before the house can simply be set on fire. And I hope she's amenable to that. I also need to make sure she's on board with Father being the number one priority - that is why I'm here. I've been consumed with thoughts of revenge as of late, but I can't let myself forget that Father is my number one reason. Even if I could get him completely free of her, and she stayed alive...I would still consider that a success albeit a frustrating one.
In some ways, if Lanea can be trusted, it's actually a boon to me. I've been trying to figure out what to do with Father after we free him. Our group needs to go take on Dan'or'avil and Azhek...I don't want to risk having Father with me when that happens. He needs to be somewhere safe. Staying with Lanea and her mother actually sounds like a really good, quiet, out-of-the-way spot for him to be. I would actually feel safer having him there, with people who care about him.
I just still can't believe he never told me any of this. He said he loved me. And I believe that he does, but then why did he keep these secrets from me?