On Road Again

It no take much. A wrong word here or there. Small action. Now no longer welcome. At least before, in circus, we keep moving place to place, so I only need stay away from those in circus, and Harry see to that, keep me busy in stalls with animals. Now I think of it, he probably protecting others, not me. After what I see last couple weeks, I no blame him anymore.
 
After all this time, maybe he right. I no know back then. I no know if he did. Either way, it probably for best. It definitely for best now. My actions cause this. Maggie, my first real friend, she hurt bad. Calliope, healer of Meadows, dead. All my fault.
 
I push Susslusst. I get between him and Maggie. I hurt him. I announce to Meadows, Light and Dark coming to kill. It all my fault they go after Salus people, my friends, and no me. Even Jenson put himself at risk, for what? So I stay where not welcome?
 
People no like me there. They scared me. I feel stares. I feel connection there ‘cause they like me, unwanted, unloved. But after today, after what I do, I not wanted even there. I try protect that place. I try tell them defend peaceful. I even try. But still, I wanna kill.
 
I may no kill snake. But I mad I no kill snake. Robin sneaky, got close before me, and shadow creature hurt Puck. Wanted to make snake’s brain ooze out nose, but no satisfaction. And that before got message from Nunya that Maggie missing. Fucking snake planned all along.
 
At least Nunya safe, no hurt only Maggie blood. But too much. And everything happen so fast. Then Morq come at Nunya with sickle, I thought she about to attack, she lucky I distraught I almost melt her brain too. But she only put sickle in Nunya hand and tell him to use. She right, maybe peace defend not way. I too took off patch and dumped two daggers onto ground gave him for Vacmu and Gathug. Selena no like, but told her about coming vision of kids standing over her. She can deal with that.
 
Then we go save Maggie and others. Grave yard was not as spooky in day, but awkward. Mosuleum was empty, but found a tunnel into underground layer and we snuck way into bad area. We heard screams, and had to fight way past ugly creatures. Well, others fought, I tired fighting concentrated on saving. Maggie stuck on alter, no wake. Took lot to get off, but eventually did, and rushed out once Jenson picked her and flew out. I sorry later I no turn back to help others, but this no fight, this about friends.
 
This last time people die because me. They want what in me, they need find it. Good luck. They only find it now because I stay in one place. That why people hurt. So, I no longer stay in one place. Won't stop, can't stop, otherwise turn into worms.
 
Maybe I find new circus. I hope Nunya will like circus.