Cronk o' Dar
Cronk , o' Dar (a.k.a. The Dead End Trigger)
Inciting Incident
Cronk o' Dar's Last Job under The Gutter Snakes left him in such emotional distress that it was the final straw for him. Something about the mission devastated him, and allowed cronk to make the connection that the cruelty that he had been participating in as a Gutter snake and the mindless slaughter he'd led as a slave soldier were all the same. Begging Dart to abandon the deal with The Gutter Snakes, Dart chooses to dismiss Cronk's concerns and continue with it.Heartbroken by this, Cronk was taken aback by how Dart could be so hypocritical. He forsook Dart, and stormed off to finally take things into his own hands and start a life of his own, without Dart. He went to his friend Forge-Face, and exited her forge with a new look more representative of who he is and where his allegiances lie. Without having said "goodbye" to anyone else, he left Two Fang.
While it is true that Cronk hates Dart now, the Daring, Darling, Darndest Dart who he had known and found love for in the past was still someone he valued. This person doesn't exist anymore to Cronk, which he has mostly come to accept the reality of now. As a tribute to Dart's old vision that he admires so much, Cronk adopted the "o' Dar" suffix to his name, which is a play on the many anecdotal titles his then best friend used to be known by.
Best Accidental Father Figure of the Year Award
After leaving Two Fang, Cronk's first stop was the big city, Assandria. This is where he met Mist , the poor orphaned water genasi girl. Cronk and Mist's Adventures Through Assandria!!! Taught cronk important things about love and friendship.Physical Description
General Physical Condition
Body Features
Facial Features
Identifying Characteristics
Physical quirks
Apparel & Accessories
Specialized Equipment
Mental characteristics
Gender Identity
Sexuality
He feels a sort of repression of his own sexuality and romantic desires, not because of his unwillingness to accept being homosexual, but because his sentimental wants are rarely ever considered by others, including people he's had history with in the past. He has had a limited and rather unfulfilling sexual and romantic history.
Education
Employment
Accomplishments & Achievements
Failures & Embarrassments
Mental Trauma
Cronk's experience as a lost soul floating through the afterlife was especially traumatic because his greatest fear boils down to loneliness. during that entire time, he was alone and had no recourse. Even though he is alive now, remnants of his broken state of mind are still lingering in his head, making his daily life difficult to navigate with everything he'd known feeling so strange now.
Intellectual Characteristics
Morality & Philosophy
A core philosophy of his is that everyone is capable of making their own decisions in life.
Taboos
Personality Characteristics
Motivation
Savvies & Ineptitudes
Likes & Dislikes
Virtues & Personality perks
Vices & Personality flaws
Holding accountability
Cronk does try to be honest to close friends but he will lie or omit information to avoid confrontation. He's also not very honest with himself either so anything he says could be questioned, sometimes making him very hypocritical. This dishonesty manifests itself through his inability to comprehend and make sense of the situation he was "born" into. On one hand, if Cronk chooses to take full accountabilty, he will be admitting to being a major contributor to the mass slaughter of a lot of innocent people-- proving that he has been of the monstrous sort this whole time. On the other hand, if he places the blame on the others who simply told him to carry out these orders, that would mean that he's invalidating his own sense of agency and humanity, reducing himself, albeit only his past self as not fully sentient or capable of making his own decisions. What causes him to seem so dishonest is how both of these statements are equally true to him, but are inherently contradictory.
Bad habits, self harming behaviour
His frequent picking of his arm plating does get quite bad sometimes, as it will go from a subconcious self-soothing behaviour to something done excessively because it makes him feel like garbage.
Uncharacteristic of a typical warforged, smoking is one of his more obscure vices. The effects of nicotine don't do anything for him but the way the smoke makes his internals feel terrible and give him a backwards sense of comfort/discomfort that he resorts to when in complete desperation. Two Fang Gutter Snakes frequently would smoke for aesthetic reasons, so this learned behaviour is deeply ingrained in him. Typically not done in the presence of friends or people he respects, so most characters (excluding Mist ) haven't been aware of this habit until recently. The cigarette hand roll tin that he uses has sentimental value because it was given to him by Dart after he had quit smoking. After being resurrected from his 514 long years in purgatory, Cronk has gone back to smoking regularly because the action itself is so loaded that it grounds him in reality and provides some kind of reassurance.
Diagnostic overview, CPTSD
Cronk's long and violent past has cumulated into a seemingly insurmountable barrier between his current place in the world and where/who he would much rather be. The constant percieved reinforcement of his feelings of inadequacy and guilt makes him feel like he does not belong with any group of people, no matter how badly he needs the connections. With every relationship he has there is always an underlying sense that he either is unfit to be with the other person, even with those he is most close with, like Mist. This aligns with a depersonalized sense of identity because his perception of himself and where he should be are both severely misaligned and constantly at odds with each other.Dissociation, on the other HAND, is present when he experiences his hand tremors. His hand tremors are a physical manifestation of his mental conflict, because its also accompanied by a rush of thoughts, and an onslaught of anxiety. Oftentimes there will be something that Cronk sees or experiences in campaign that will make him think something along the lines of "oh no, this is just like (...)" which is an example of this kind of "flashback". instances of this happening can range from being simple misses, or prolonged bouts of guilt-fueled depression.
Death as a concept has not been something Cronk has allowed himself to grapple with in the past. This apathy towards death in general and his own final future death, whenever that might be, AND combined with his negative self-image ultimately leads to suicidal ideation driven by these things adding up. in recent times, his view on this has changed slightly because of his newfound fear of dying. But, the thoughts of a deserved, early death by whatever means still linger in his head because that doesn't go away so easily.
This fear of dying links back to a reluctance to face judgement. When getting his cards read by ondroc, he was only able to really listen to the negatives of the judgement card. This is caused by the toxic guilt that plagues him. With no proper support system in place for warforged in his kind of situation, he's been trying to reconcile these feelings on his own for the most part. This is ineffective in actually addressing the root of the issue which is part of why he struggles with a depersonalized self.
The jumpiness at danger, boredom, irritability, and addictive self-destructive behaviour are all things that align with symptoms of CPTSD that can be easily identified by anyone who knows him.
Personality Quirks
Hygiene
Social
Contacts & Relations
- Deep down, he is only now starting to realise that he's quite fond of Leonard-- enough to confront and slightly antagonize Nulara for also being interested. He enjoys his company and friendship because of the mutual respect he feels between them, finding comfort in how they can converse as equals. Still unsure of what exactly to do with how he feels, Cronk still opts for simply getting to know him and trying to spend time together. after his time in jail, he's had quite a bit of time to mull over his true feelings. the time away has only intensified his heartache, and leaves him in conflict because he believes that Leonard doesn't truly know how bad of a person he is. secretly, he hopes that Leonard's efforts to free them from jail is proof of a deeper mutual connection. After being briefly reunited with him, he feels weird about him still, and can't bear to have much of a conversation with him.
- Tarvenius Belhor Jr has been a reliable friend to Cronk as they've grown to know each other over time, and he feels like Tarvent's emotional vulnerability is something that Cronk can appreciate how they can confide in each other.
- Oskar is incredibly helpful to Cronk and they bond over being two of the only gun nuts around. Oskar provides cronk with guns to testout at no cost, and they are very amicable towards each other as they both enthuse over these things whith much excitement.
- Eric has been Cronk's friend ever since he surrendered on the top deck of the boat after being fished out of the water. Forgiving him for threatening belisarius's life, Cronk spent a lot of time teaching Eric how to read and do mathematics. Cronk finds a lot of satisfaction from being able to come up to Eric to speak about important matters because of how knowledgable he's already become by now.
- Cronk has helped out Tess Terrenarrow on multiple occasions thinks of her like a young adult who desperately needs help. He feels quite bad for her but does enjoy playing cards with her and only wishes for the best outcome for Tess Terrenarrow.
- Mist was once sort of his foster child for a couple years while they were living in the Assyrian capitol. He doesn't really see it this way and definitely would not consider himself a father but he kinda knows that Mist thinks of him that way. He cares about her, but since she's grown up more he's not been treating her the same as he used to. Not like he was a great father figure in the first place. However, he will still competitively try to dismantle locks faster than she can pick them.
- Gladia Fowler has always been a strange person to Cronk, but they bond over girly stuff. He does her hair and makeup sometimes, and they gossip on occasion. Gladia Fowler trusts him a lot, and has given him all of her savings so he can manage it instead.
- He would also include Caul as his enemy. He may be dead, but with how people have reported literal hauntings of him, Cronk has not been able to let go of his hatred for him and what he believes he represents. Caul continuing to be a part of Cronk's life reminds him of a part of himself he would rather not be forced to confront.
- While he would not refer to Jimmy as his enemy at all, they have disliked each other in the past. however, now that Jimmy has been released from the brig and has been making an effort to change for the better, Cronk has begun to feed proud of him for being able to take that step.
- Dart is Cronk's ex-best friend, and he idolizes who Dart used to be back when they were closer. He still admires the image of him in the distant past that he remembers, still missing what they once had. He wants to be mad at him for losing sight of his dream but feels he can't tear away his biases from who Dart is now. Unable to completely let go of these emotions, Cronk ran away. It was only through Dart's collaboration with The Gutter Snakes that he began to realize how the gang had been corrupting himself and Dart's values. Dart's lies and disingenuousness was something he couldn't forgive him for. Cronk's first love has since been shattered by that revelation and he knows that whatever could have been is lost now.
Religious Views
Social Aptitude
Mannerisms
Hobbies & Pets
During the jailtime he and the others had endured, he spiralled a little bit and became close friends with a fat brown rat named Rat.
His hobbies include reading, dancing, engaging with music, cleaning and organizing. He's dabbled in many activities throughout his life because of how much free time he has.
Speech
Relationships
Nicknames & Petnames
not like this is canon right now but Cronk is only capable of using excessively sweet and corny petnames
Nicknames & Petnames
In Mist's head, she calls him dad sometimes...
Commonalities & Shared Interests
They're both rogue-ish rogue/fighters, and express their dex-ness in different ways. Part of this is from Mist's time fighting alongside Cronk, and being raised by him for a few years.
History
Caul and Cronk never knew each other personally until they reunited at the camp in 514, but after being reaquainted they quickly began to antagonise each other. Cronk ultimately kills Caul during this pivitol moment, but Caul continues to haunt him and his friends, allowing for Cronk to fester in his resentment towards him.
History
Elias and Cronk dated for a few weeks during Cronk's time in Assandria. Elias had been around for a little longer than that, and was about to move on from there until Cronk caught his attention. While this time was short, it ultimately really shaped how Cronk percieves relationships to this day-- but also turned out to be rather unimportant in Elias' life. Elias' sexual and emotional abuse is mostly invisible to Cronk, unfortunately making him internalize a lot of the things that was put in his head. They did "break up" after Cronk caught him kissing someone else.
as a result of this messy end, Cronk has internalized much of how Elias treated him, and doesnt even really blame him for it either. He knows that what Elias did was wrong, but he believes he must have had good reason for it, treating him in the way he did.
Relationship Reasoning
in Cronk, Elias only saw a commodity. Cronk legitimately had hope for a long term relationship.
Commonalities & Shared Interests
All that Cronk thinks they have in common are lies made up by Elias.
Shared Acquaintances
Probably Elias' pet ferret
History
Hutch and Cronk were in a sort of situationship for probably about a month or so. In the end, they parted ways because neither really saw it working long term, or as anything more than a bit of kinship. Cronk's changed for the better, and Cronk just now wishes that he could do the same for Hutch.
Relationship Reasoning
Hutch took the time to understand Cronk, and Cronk did his best to do the same with the little information he had. Hutch's place in Cronk's life is as the only person who actually wanted to explore him earnestly, as a person with a body and distressing thoughts regarding it.
Commonalities & Shared Interests
They both resonated with each other because of their not necessarily complicated, but troubled relationship with how they wished to be perceived and how others actually percieved them.
Shared Secrets
A few of Hutch's personal anecdotes regarding his struggles with gender and sexual identity were shared with Cronk, and Cronk readily was an open book with him because of that.
Wealth & Financial state
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