Today was weird. I mean… it was wonderful
You make everything so…
Ravaphine and Ryleigh keep telling me I look good because of how happy I am
And I… I feel better, I… It’s not just you, you’ve helped so much but even just everyone else… everyone else showing me that I… that I can exist? That I’m… that I’m allowed to live I’m allowed to just be me…
It still hurts when they kind of ignore me, I don’t know how to fix that. That was part of the reason I would go do things on my own, but at least now… at least now I’ll tell someone.
Tell you.
I know going off on my own isn’t a good idea but… sometimes I just still think it’s faster. I promise… I’ll try to never leave without telling you where I’m going. I don’t want to worry you again. Not like that.
I’m scared we’ll have to kill Cae tomorrow and I don’t know if I can handle that. I don’t want her family to lose her.
I should ask you if it’s ok to keep teasing you about sleeping outside… and apologize for um… well outing you as “fancy”. I’m sorry I don’t think I asked if I could but I was… I don’t know I guess I was just excited and I wanted to tell my friends.
Goddess you’re so beautiful and I love watching you do anything.
I love you and thank you for camping outside with me even though I know it isn’t your favorite.