Running through Rodoza

by Seirixori Iscitan

I messed up again.

I messed up so bad

I don’t know what to do

I haven’t told anyone yet I probably confused Ryleigh

They haven’t brought it up either

There hasn’t really been time

She told me once that she couldn’t be the thing that stopped me from hurting innocent people…

I didn’t just hurt them this time do you think she’ll leave me

They’re gone

I killed them I could have done something else...I didn’t know it was going to be that destructive

I

I killed them

When we were at Stonetooth I just wanted to be better at the fighting… I felt so useless

Now I… now I don’t want to fight

I killed innocent people

I’m no better than the people that killed everyone I knew

I’ve had to use my magic on the two people I care for the most

Is there some kind of joke I don’t know about?

Is this punishment for trying so hard to be against what I am that in turn I’m just making it easier to be that devil?

Am I just being toyed with?

Are Mielikki and Takara just laughing at me somewhere, look at this stupid tiefling, trying to go against her blood.

I used to have weeks at a time where I was in the forest surrounded by animals… and nothing went wrong, nothing life altering or death defying or political bullshit happened. I didn’t get bullied or harassed… I miss that. I miss having that break. I miss how simple it was… But she wasn’t there… please still be here, please tell me I didn’t ruin everything again. Why do you… I keep failing you how are you still…

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Day 8, Wedan 12 Jaqmont 3Y53
12th of Jaqmont 3Y53

Day 8, Wedan 12 Jaqmont 3Y53

Day 9, Fendan 13 Jaqmont 3Y53

Day 10, Hotdan, 14 Jaqmont 3Y53

Day 11 Andan 15 Jaqmont 3Y53

Day 12-13, Mirdan 16 Jaqmont 3Y53

Day 14

I stopped keeping track of the days, sue me

Arena Fight

Wedding

Some Old Dwarven Place - several days

Running through Rodoza

What

Dragons, Temples, and Exes oh my

Fuck Everything

That... totally went well.

Fear

Forget Me Not

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Running through Rodoza

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