I told Ryleigh I was afraid to follow those guys... She said she was too but...
I know she didn't get what I meant.
She told me it didn't feel good when she killed that guy, when she essentially tortured him. Killed others...
She was afraid I think because she was so close to dying... but she was still ready to go, for me.
I...
I was--am afraid because I didn't feel anything when I did those things to the bandit king. He was dead already, sure, but...
I don't know, does feeling empty count as an actual feeling?
And the people... I was afraid to follow them because
Because I'm afraid of what I would have done...
Of what I wanted to do.
How do I stop this?