I don't know how to feel about today.
I think I feel tense. Not a specific kind of tense like afraid or excited just...tense.
I'm tense about the masking. I'm tense about the battle. I might even be a little tense about what Ruin said about whether I'm here for me or my family.
Mostly though I'm tense because I know what tomorrow means. We are, finally, seeking out our enemy. that feels right, disinfecting a rotten wound.
Hopefully after that I'll be able to breathe a little easier.
Nataan is helping me calm down- that's what I'm calling my new jaguar. She feels like she's here for me...to make this a little easier. It does help. I think I'm gonna pet her for a bit before bed.
Its stupid but I hope it is us that find and kill this stone ghost. Stupid because its much safer if the teachers do... but this guys pets have been hounding me and my new friends for a while now, and I want the pleasure of ending him to be ours.