with purpose now

by Blossom Of the Hidden Oasis

i am still angry

i do not think i will ever not be angry over Sanna's death

but just as i cannot be afraid forever, i cannot be angry forever either

as much as i want to

as much as it pains be to be anything but angry

as much as it feels like being anything less is a disservice to her memory

i know i cannot

i know. . .she would not want that

so i will work to be better

if not for me than for her

*****

we have made a new friend

he is pretty and damp and smiley

dear gods he is so nice

painfully nice

his sheer amount of sunshine radiating from him reminds me of Caleb

it hurts

but it is also nice

a different kind of comfort in a time i could use it most

*****

i told Meryll the truth of myself

she is now our captain and she should be aware the danger i present

but. . .she said i should not follow her simply because she is my captain but because i want to

. . .

i . . . i think i want to

i do not have anything else to do, but

but i like her

i trust her

she is. . .a friend

they are all my friends

perhaps that is purpose enough

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strong and shiny

i should have run
19 March 1349

allies?
8 June 1349

i feel. . .
9 June 1349

the race begins in earnest
12 & 13 june 1349

Sanna
15 June 1349

i am right in this
17 June 1349

Sparkos
18 june 1349

Grim
19 June 1349

i hate the rain
27 june 1349

we have an understanding
24 july 1349

i hate this
24 july 1349

knowledge is power
25 July 1349

the truth is painful
26 July 1349

i am conflicted
27 July 1349

I LOST MY ARM
28 july 1349

everything has gone to fucking shit
29 july 1349

growth and change?
3 august 1349

freedom?
5 august 1349

people are difficult
3 august 1349

i am trying
17 august 1349

a quest for friendship and adventure
18 August 1349

my fucking leg
19 August 1349

friendship and fire
21 August 1349

a girl and her horse
22 august 1349

spinning
23 August 1349

she deserved better
25 August 1349

with purpose now
2 September 1349

to thieves and tools
2 September 1349

happiness?????
3 September 1349

crushing
4 September 1349

"knowledge is power, always"
5 September 1349

the truth feels overrated
7 September 1349

they will be the death of me
8 September 1349

the gods have a sick sense of humor
9 September 1349

questionable at best
10 September 1349

point of progress
16 September 1349

the same cloth
22 September 1349

a new fear
23 September 1349

Lives over loot
24 Sept 1349

with purpose now

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