i am trying to be better
it is so much harder to think of the greater good and i fear the mental work it causes me may one day be too much
i do not know how anyone does this all the time
things that i have to be better:
did not try to bargain for more money for the completed job
did not try to bargain for more money for the ghost job
did not steal from new crew members
tried to befriend new crew members and care about them as people
did not make a new enemy did not INTENTIONALLY make a new enemy; Enrora seems to dislike speaking with me but perhaps that is just her personality?
this is so much work
but. . .i am not weighed down by it
it is not nearly as much of a burden
and perhaps it will get easier with time, perhaps my mind and body will become stronger under it. . .