i fear the secrets Vulcrom holds.
i fear how much potential this place has. . .and how much that potential will attract the eyes of others
and most of all i fear how much the past seems to leak into my future
i see Caleb in the faces of others here (tallness and tusks aside)
i see a city full of shadows that the Madame can easily use
i see a path towards my past without taking away from my future
but the past is full of secrets that i am not privy to
potentially dangerous secrets
...potentially painful secrets
i had thought, from previous discussions, that Sparkos did not understand my thoughts, my desire to understand my past, uncover my own secrets, so that i can avoid more pain. but i fear that he, unfortunately, is like me: searching but scared of what we will find.
yet strangely i am comforted. i can no longer hold anger at him from before. we are both lost.
but we are not alone.
we have Sanna, who is practical and diplomatic and compassionate.
we have Grim, who is full of odd knowledge and a strange kindness and stranger drugs.
and we have each other, both searching a new city, a new land, for answers that perhaps we do not really want.