i just. . .
i am surprised, but also not
gods i do not know how to feel. . .
i had thought we were friends,
i had thought she was one of us,
i had thought. . .
i had a lot of thoughts
and i don't know what to do
because i guess. . .none of them mattered
. . .
. . . . .
. . . . . . .
will the others leave me as well?