Michael, blessed be him, is going to make me an arm with the aid of Sparkos
I am grateful, even if it does grieve me a bit to be without it
but perhaps it is for the best
(is this what they call, personal growth?)
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the small blue friend says i will start back at the beginning
and i do not understand, my beginning is nothingness
it is poverty, pain, fear, and grief
i refuse to be back at the beginning, i will not be that again
i will not be used again