i feel so much
my heart will for certain burst out of my chest at any moment
i l. . .like Cascade a great deal
more than i thought i would
more than i thought i could
i had thought that the affection i have for my friends was overwhelming
but this is something else, heavier, i can feel it like a crushing weight on my chest
at least with my friends i know i can be a physical barrier against harm
and while i know Cascade is capable, i find myself more than a little bit worried about his safety
which is dangerous
all of this is so very dangerous
there is so much that we must deal with, people and rumors and omitted truths, and i am not sure how best to protect this growing group of people that i care for
between the fear that i always have and this new heavy feeling growing on me, i wish it was possible to hold them all in my hands and protect them