FUCK
Shit. Shit. Shit. We get to Rosohna, basically the other end of the world and THIS is where I find my brother? I was so excited and worried and scared and nervous and feeling almost every single feeling at once that I can barely remember what happened.
He’s in a band. I made Ael and Velina go with me (that’s a WHOLE OTHER THING that I can’t even think about right now). I’m so glad Ael was with me because I completely froze up when it was time to talk to him. I started thinking about how stupid it is to just walk up to someone and say, “Oh, hi. You don’t know me but I’m your sister” and I started freaking out. Ael calmed me down and went with me to talk to him.
And it went horrible…
I mean, I guess it could have been worse. He didn’t tell me to fuck off or anything. He did freak out a little though. When I mentioned our dad and told him that he was my father too and that I should find him. He started going on and on about me bringing a kid with me. Maybe it was because she's the Dawn Princess (again, a WHOLE OTHER THING). And he told me to meet him at the super shady sounding place. So… I guess it’s not horrible. I mean, we’re still going to talk. Right?
I just…
I thought it would be different. I thought I would feel a sense of family immediately or something. I thought I would be welcomed with open arms and a sense of excitement. That’s how I felt when dad told me I had a brother. I was excited. I wanted to know him. It never occurred to me whether or not he might want to know me. And I’m not sure if he does after that interaction.
Charlotte's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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An Outsider at Home
01 Sep 2021 01:23:52
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A Family Estrangement
01 Sep 2021 01:42:35
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Discovering Avandra
01 Sep 2021 01:51:36
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A Performance Gone Wrong
02 Sep 2021 02:42:24
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The Search for More Family
02 Sep 2021 03:14:24
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Friends & Assassins
11 Sep 2021 01:07:48
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The Road to Nogvurot
11 Sep 2021 01:12:51
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A Charming Exit
19 Sep 2021 01:36:25
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A Shadow's Breath from Death
1st of Sydenstar, 385 PD
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Bandits & New Friends
2nd of Sydenstar, 385 PD
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A Dress for Thistle
3rd of Sydenstar, 385 PD
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A Letter to Mom
6th of Sydenstar, 385
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Happy Birthday, Thistle
7th of Sydenstar, 385 PD
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FUCK
19 Nov 2021 02:55:53
01 Sep 2021 01:23:52
01 Sep 2021 01:42:35
01 Sep 2021 01:51:36
02 Sep 2021 02:42:24
02 Sep 2021 03:14:24
11 Sep 2021 01:07:48
11 Sep 2021 01:12:51
19 Sep 2021 01:36:25
1st of Sydenstar, 385 PD
2nd of Sydenstar, 385 PD
3rd of Sydenstar, 385 PD
6th of Sydenstar, 385
7th of Sydenstar, 385 PD
19 Nov 2021 02:55:53
The major events and journals in Charlotte's history, from the beginning to today.
FUCK
Shit. Shit. Shit. We get to Rosohna, basically the other end of the world and THIS is where I find my brother? I was so excited and worried and scared and nervous and feeling almost every single feeling at once that I can barely remember what happened. ...
04:01 am - 16.11.2021Happy Birthday, Thistle
It’s Thistle’s birthday and we just finished having a girls night. She told me she didn’t want to do anything for her birthday, but I can’t help myself sometimes. Besides, Ael suggested a slumber party and the ideas just started piling on after th...
03:17 am - 16.11.2021A Letter to Mom
Hi Mom, I know it’s been a while since I’ve written. I think I spent the past several months too in my head about everything: home, magic, family, my letters. I mean, I’m not even sure if you read these. I’ve never stayed anywhere long enough t...
12:23 am - 06.11.2021A Dress for Thistle
Soooooo.... I had a talk with Thistle and she apparently thinks I'm super charming (which was just the sweetest thing to say) and she wants help. I thought she was asking about the way I act, but it turns out she was talking more about how feminine I am. ...
08:33 pm - 09.10.2021Bandits & New Friends
It would be nice to be able to get through a day without being attacked by something. Virdan had just stumbled across someone new and we were introducing ourselves when we were rudely interrupted by bandits, and they had a blade on Thistle! I was so worri...
11:58 pm - 08.10.2021A Shadow's Breath from Death
I think I just almost died. I feel terrible. It was a terrible night and I hate terrible nights. We had to fight these gross dog things and some kind of ghost. I thought it was going to be a good night. We all shared a little more about each other. Usu...
04:59 am - 25.09.2021A Charming Exit
I've been thinking about magic. I haven't been using it as much since I left the circus, only when it seems like my only option. After what happened with Pan and Gabrod, I thought maybe I wasn't any good at it. Last night made me think I might be good at ...
01:36 am - 19.09.2021Friends & Assassins
What just happened? I feel so out of my depth. It already felt like we might have made a mistake coming to Nogvurot. There were Righteous Brand everywhere. After our encounter on the road, we were all feeling pretty nervous. We a table near the back of...
01:07 pm - 11.09.2021The Road to Nogvurot
I met people! I was starting to feel kind of lonely and the guilt brewing back up about Gabrod wasn’t helping, either. I was starting to feel down and was trying to cheer myself up with a little tune, when I came upon a family camping out in the forest....
10:12 pm - 04.09.2021The Search for More Family
After an unfortunate incident that left another person injured and disfigured, it felt safest to leave for a while. My father told me about the Grinners, a secret organization of bards and minstrels. He said they spread freedom and inspire hope and revolu...
02:13 am - 01.09.2021***Edit Later
***Write this with Joey and Lia Rival: a veteran blames me for their disfigurement after we tampered with power beyond our control. They want to destroy me....
02:00 am - 01.09.2021Discovering Avandra
I traveled all over the empire with my father and the circus for the better part of two years. I learned more about performing, music, and even life outside the empire. I began to learn how to use music to create magic from one of the other performers (Da...
01:51 am - 01.09.2021A Family Estrangement
When I was 22, a traveling performing troupe called Molina's Illustrious Circus came through Odessloe. For the first time, my mother told me about my father. She told me that he used to travel with that circus. She told me his name was Karai and told me i...
01:42 am - 01.09.2021An Outsider at Home
I was born in Rexxentrum to a single mother. Shortly after I was born, my grandfather arranged a marriage between my mother and my stepfather. He was a Crownsguard trying to work his way up the ranks. A few years into their marriage, they had twins and I ...
01:23 am - 01.09.2021
Social
Birthplace
Rexxentrum, Zemni Fields, Dwendalian Empire
Current Residence
Last residence: Odessloe, Zemni Fields, Dwendalian Empire
Contacts & Relations
ODESSLOE/HOMETOWN
Lein Utgaf - Watchmaster
Kalrihre Ruell - Starosta (prior, when I lived there)
MADAME KRISHANA'S TRAVELLING CIRCUS
Madame Krishana - circus ringmaster
Wit - father, beast tamer
Pan - juggler, acrobatics performer
Gabrod the Powerful - strongman performer
Family Ties
Emilia Sommer (she/her)
My mother was always loving and tried her best to include me in the family, but she often felt pulled in two directions and her husband and the twins never quite accepted me the way she wanted. She encouraged my musical abilities and bought me the viol that I still play. She never told me much about my father because she didn't like thinking about her past. I take after my mother's sweet nature, but she can also be very meek.
Maxwell Sommer (he/him)
My stepfather was never what anyone would call a loving man. He believed in discipline and responsibility, traits he likely learned from his career as a Crownsguard. He was very strict had little patience for things he deemed frivolous. He would rather I had learned to fight than learned to play the viol and sing, but he let it go when his own children were born. He didn't want to let me travel with my father in the circus and we got into an argument about it. I accidently hurt my sister during the argument and he told to me to leave and not come back.
Amelie Sommer (she/her)
Amelie is technically the first born of the twins. She has a tendency to be cruel when she doesn't like people or even just disagrees with them. She is very adept at magic and has applied to the Soltryce Academy a number of times, but hadn't gotten in by the time I left home. Growing up, I was always very sweet to her to try and stay on her good side. When she inserted herself into my argument with Max about the circus, I retorted with an insult and accidently hurt her with a Vicious Mockery spell. I can't imagine she'll ever forgive me for that.
Katz Sommer (they/them)
As Amelie's younger twin, Katz has always followed her around like some kind of protector. They showed early talent with weapons and eventually began to train with my stepfather and joined the Crownsguard. Katz is generally very quiet, only really confiding fully in Amelie. They are easily angered, though, and they allow that anger to fester until they let it out all at once. I did well avoiding Katz's anger as a child, but I worry that after what I did to Amelie, Katz has it out for me.
Wit (he/him)
I didn't know my father most of my life. My mother only told me about him when the circus he performed in made its way back to town. She encouraged me to take that opportunity to get to know him. I spent some time with him in Odessloe and then in Rexxentrum before deciding I wanted to learn more from him and the others in the circus. He said he saw potential in me and invited me to join the circus. I spent about a year and half traveling with the circus, learning new skills and magic before I hurt someone in the circus and left. When I left, he told me about my brother and said I should find him.
Ambition (he/him)
The only things I know about my brother what my father has told me. He's a red tiefling (like my father) and he's a member of some organization called the Grinners. My father didn't tell me much about the organization, but he said he knows Ambition was working to get into the empire the last he had heard from him. When I left the circus, my father recommended I try to find him.
Religious Views
Meeting Aradon on the road from Odessloe to Rexxentrum was truly Avandra's way of showing me I should take control of my own destiny. He taught me about her ideals of change (for good), freedom, and being bold. Aradon gave me a coin with her face on it and told me it would bring me luck if I followed her commandments.
It turns out my father worships her, as well. He spent the year and half I traveled with the circus teaching me more about her and reminding me to let go of my fears, be bold, and make good change in the world.