A crisis of faith but the start of something new
Dear Jer
It has been a while since I have spoken to you and I wanted to apologise for that. I will never forget you, even though our time was short. You showed me a lot of kindness and patience, and I loved you for that.
I mentioned that I was a follower of Karametra. A lot has happened that has caused me to question that faith. I am starting to think that the Gods all have personal agendas and that none of them deserve our complete devotion. Lhoris got that right - we should be asking a lot more questions. I am not sure that Arman even trusts Erebos, and I cannot see Keranos, Nylea and even Purphoros bringing a lot of happiness to my other friends. I hope I am wrong.
When I died, Karametra said something to me that has stuck with me. She said: "If your friends return life to your body, then we will have much to do together. If not, then I will choose another." It made me realise that to the Gods, even one as wonderful as I think Karametra is, mortals are replaceable and interchangeable. We are not special. If we do not serve a purpose, are we just worthless to them?
I think our goal in this world or in the previous one is to find happiness where we can.
Your mom once asked me why I married you and I told her it was because you treated me well and looked after me. She seemed disappointed by my answer. I am starting to understand that she wanted more for you, and I think for me too. It is a cliché, but I realise now that I was looking for a father figure and not a partner.
I have found someone else, and I do not know where exactly it will go or where it will end. He is stubborn and impulsive and proud. He makes me want to scream sometimes but we are good for each other. He makes me laugh but he also makes me think and reminds me that I do not always have to take life so seriously. It is never going to be easy - we are both strong willed and have a lot of baggage that we carry from our past. But it will be exciting, passionate and fun. I think we could make each other happy. That, or we could end up killing each other.
Love
Kit
Kit's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Kit in Diamond Lake
09 Dec 2021 03:24:46
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My new friends
19 Dec 2021 10:01:52
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Tragedy
21 Dec 2021 07:26:43
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My head is spinning
30 Dec 2021 03:34:48
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Death and things
05 Jan 2022 04:42:25
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What happens on the road, stays on the road
11 Jan 2022 10:36:51
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Still waters
18 Jan 2022 06:20:40
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Spice and all things nice
25 Jan 2022 01:51:00
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Speaking in Tongues
02 Feb 2022 04:49:44
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The longest day
09 Feb 2022 12:55:53
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To dream or not to dream
23 Feb 2022 03:37:17
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Two very different women and a King
03 Mar 2022 06:03:16
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Nature vs Nurture
09 Mar 2022 07:33:19
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Chosen
17 Mar 2022 01:17:38
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The Gods are a Little Crazy
03 Apr 2022 06:57:06
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I am sorry Carrot
16 Apr 2022 07:09:25
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Goodbye Carrot
19 Apr 2022 05:35:02
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New World woes
27 Apr 2022 04:38:22
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Hang in there Kitty Kat
03 May 2022 05:58:30
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Abandonment issues
10 May 2022 03:39:02
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The future
25 May 2022 05:51:57
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Humbly I pray
07 Jun 2022 12:02:20
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Sun in my pocket and the moon in my hands
20 Jun 2022 02:03:47
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Do not judge a horse by its handprints
21 Jun 2022 01:12:06
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Regret and shame
04 Jul 2022 02:34:19
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Endless days
06 Jul 2022 10:02:48
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Ouch!
13 Jul 2022 10:48:27
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I died
04 Aug 2022 01:34:51
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A crisis of faith but the start of something new
18 Aug 2022 12:11:46
09 Dec 2021 03:24:46
19 Dec 2021 10:01:52
21 Dec 2021 07:26:43
30 Dec 2021 03:34:48
05 Jan 2022 04:42:25
11 Jan 2022 10:36:51
18 Jan 2022 06:20:40
25 Jan 2022 01:51:00
02 Feb 2022 04:49:44
09 Feb 2022 12:55:53
23 Feb 2022 03:37:17
03 Mar 2022 06:03:16
09 Mar 2022 07:33:19
17 Mar 2022 01:17:38
03 Apr 2022 06:57:06
16 Apr 2022 07:09:25
19 Apr 2022 05:35:02
27 Apr 2022 04:38:22
03 May 2022 05:58:30
10 May 2022 03:39:02
25 May 2022 05:51:57
07 Jun 2022 12:02:20
20 Jun 2022 02:03:47
21 Jun 2022 01:12:06
04 Jul 2022 02:34:19
06 Jul 2022 10:02:48
13 Jul 2022 10:48:27
04 Aug 2022 01:34:51
18 Aug 2022 12:11:46
The major events and journals in Kit's history, from the beginning to today.
A crisis of faith but the start of something new
Dear Jer It has been a while since I have spoken to you and I wanted to apologise for that. I will never forget you, even though our time was short. You showed me a lot of kindness and patience, and I loved you for that. I mentioned that I was a fol...
12:11 pm - 18.08.2022I died
Dear Mom I was dead and I gave my friends a big scare. I always expected to be reunited with you when I died, but I think death is more complicated than I imagined. I died in a completely different world to you, and may never get back to Greyhawk, s...
01:34 pm - 04.08.2022Ouch!
Dear Karametra I am close - sleeping at your temple tonight. I got badly hurt today and my friends brought me here to try to recover. Your priest (and Dok) healed me, thank you Karametra! It seems I have some sort of lingering weakness that hopefully,...
10:48 am - 13.07.2022Endless days
Dear Mom I wish you were still around. I could use a hug and for someone to tell me everything will be ok. The days seem longer than normal and the trip to Edessa feels neverending. I am also not getting much sleep at night. Dok and Trixi seem to b...
10:02 am - 06.07.2022Regret and shame
Dear Karametra I am a mess right now. I have given Nylea's bow to Lhoris. It was not easy. In the process, I lost a friend but managed to pay a debt. Let us start with the debt. When I was younger, Lhoris found me beaten and bleeding in an alle...
05:58 pm - 30.06.2022Do not judge a horse by its handprints
Dear Nylea My name is Kit. I am with an adventuring party called the Diamond Blades and we are not originally from here. I am not 100% sure why we were brought here, but I am grateful for the opportunity given to us by Klothys to explore a new world. ...
01:10 pm - 21.06.2022Sun in my pocket and the moon in my hands
Dear Mom I am happy and feeling incredibly lucky to have people in my life that seem to want to stick around for a while. I still need to process everything and try figure out what exactly happened but here are my initial thoughts. Firstly, we manag...
11:37 am - 14.06.2022Humbly I pray
Dear Karametra I hope you are well. I am still trying to get the hang of this praying thing, so forgive me if I am not following your religious protocols and stuff. You can give me a tap with your sickle if I am not doing it correctly. We are on t...
12:02 pm - 07.06.2022The future
Hi Jer It has been a while since I spoke to you. We are in a new world, and our short time together back in Greyhawk seems like a distant memory. But I have an important ask of you. Viridian (you would like him) and I visited a number of temples yes...
05:51 am - 25.05.2022Abandonment issues
Dear Ma You are never going to be a grandmother. Even if I could still have kids, I am not sure I would want to expose anyone to a world that does not embrace differences. Today was not the first time I was called a halfbreed and I have built up a resi...
08:06 am - 10.05.2022Hang in there Kitty Kat
Hey Kitty Kat Yeah, I know that talking to my younger self is weird, but I am not sure that I want to share what happened today with anyone else. So, life does get a lot more complicated. You will be glad to know that getting something to eat is nev...
05:58 am - 03.05.2022New World woes
Dear Mom Well, I had another strange dream. A message from the Gods or is my mind just processing stuff? In the dream, I was asked to stop the corruption so that Nylea would smile upon me. If it is a godly request, why can it not be simple eg save x or...
04:38 pm - 27.04.2022Goodbye Carrot
Dearest Carrot I know you are not dead but my heart is breaking all the same. We have been inseparable since I got you from Viridian and I really thought you were starting to like me a little. Maybe I just fooled myself into believing that you we...
05:35 pm - 19.04.2022I am sorry Carrot
Dear Emissary I am lying on my bedroll, trying to get a bit of rest. As I start to drift off, I keep seeing images of the strange men in golden masks on the beach. I always assumed that I would never leave the party behind, but I left Carrot. Emissar...
07:00 am - 16.04.2022The Gods are a Little Crazy
Dear Mom So, we are shipwrecked on an island in this New World, somewhere in the Prime Evil Sea. I am not exactly chomping at the bit to get back to Greyhawk and my past, so I may as well make the most of this adventure. Maybe we do not have to go back...
06:57 pm - 03.04.2022Chosen
Dear Sbaridin By now you know I am a fraud and no goddess. I did enjoy meeting you though and I am sorry I could not save you. In hindsight, I could have cast revivify on you but that would have made me seem even godlier and it was time for the decepti...
07:55 am - 17.03.2022Nature vs Nurture
Hi Mom You have been on my mind a lot lately. I love being with the Diamond Blades but between adventures and in our downtime, each member seems to be wrestling with their own, inner demons. This is giving me a lot of thinking time. I know steal...
07:33 pm - 09.03.2022Two very different women and a King
Dear Mom I finally got some rest and I feel like a new woman. So, we met the most horrid woman and we have been travelling with her through the swamp. I had to sit on my hands last night while we were resting to avoid getting up and slicing her neck...
06:03 pm - 03.03.2022To dream or not to dream
Hi Jer I am tired. So tired. You told me stories of some of the torture you had to endure when you were captured, and I remember you saying that sleep deprivation was among the most grueling. I am not comparing what you went through with me being ti...
03:37 pm - 23.02.2022The longest day
Dear Jer Did you ever feel like you are a puppet on a string and that the puppeteer does not know what they are doing? I am probably just overtired, but I am having a really bad day… and it is far from over. I tried to make myself useful by lo...
12:55 pm - 09.02.2022Speaking in Tongues
Dear Jer It has been an unusually long day, and the Blades are now taking a short break from swamping. My body is covered in mosquito bites – those little bastards even managed to get through my leather armour … or up it, which is worse. The itch i...
04:49 pm - 02.02.2022Spice and all things nice
Hi Ma I have this magical spice pouch and every time I say the name of a spice, I can grab a pinch of it. I have been saying cinnamon a lot because it brings back fond memories of you (and makes me want pancakes). I got two tattoos in Greyhawk befor...
09:23 am - 25.01.2022Still waters
Dear Jer I once told you how envious I felt when the kids at the orphanage found homes – they always looked so hopeful and happy. I think I now know how they felt. Lhoris, Viridian, Doc, Arman and Mizzlyn make me feel like I am part of something. Tog...
06:20 pm - 18.01.2022What happens on the road, stays on the road
Dear Garras We did not officially get to meet, but I am one of Viridian's friends. I do not think anyone, other than your partner (Kendra? – pretty name), was sorry to see you die today. It made your funeral (you were set alight in the cart you ambus...
06:11 am - 11.01.2022Death and things
Dear Dead Guard I killed (I guess if I can talk to my dead husband, I can talk to you) I am sorry you died. I wish you had been a little stronger. I did consider paying to have you brought back to life, but then I do not know if you were a good or ...
04:42 am - 05.01.2022My head is spinning
Hi Jer Things are not going well today. Firstly, I am talking to you in my head while I should be preparing to face two statues which have just come to life. Talking to myself just cannot be a good thing! Secondly, I am so distracted by everything tha...
03:34 pm - 30.12.2021Tragedy
Jer, I am writing a really short note cause I am totally exhausted. Not sure it is because of all we went through today or just emotional fatigue, but I feel compelled to sleep. So Alduin, the guy who came to my rescue earlier today, died. The magi...
07:19 am - 21.12.2021My new friends
Hi Jer I have not thought about you for a while - there has been so much happening. It feels like a week but it is still only the same day. Things got even hairier today! I lost count of the number of creatures that came at us. This group I am "hangi...
10:01 pm - 19.12.2021Kit in Diamond Lake
Dear Jer Before I left Greyhawk, Cook told me that if the grief felt too overwhelming, that I should just talk to you. My new companions would 100% think I was nuts if I did that, so I am going to try to write in this journal instead. I think you wo...
03:24 pm - 09.12.2021The list of amazing people following the adventures of Kit.
Social
Birthplace
The City of Greyhawk
Current Residence
Kit is currently on the road. When she is in Greyhawk she will stay in the Thieves' Quarters - if she has coin at the Hanged Man Inn or at the Thieves' Guild dormitory.
Contacts & Relations
Thieves' Guild in the Thieves' Quarter.
Bud (her dear friend and former street companion.
Malora - previous lover who she keeps in contact with.
Cook - the cook at the Thieves' Guild who taught her how to read/write.
Guild Apprentice Trainer - a halfling named Tabia Turtlequake.
Wealth & Financial state
Kit has some gold she is saving but it is all earmarked to pay her debts. Not monetary debts, but debts of kindness.
Family Ties
Kit's mom is dead and she has never met her dad (did he even know about her?)
Her late husband's mother, Zia Veruga, is her only familial tie now. Zia is a doting, jolly human woman who has shown Kit nothing but love. Note to DM - please do not touch her x
Religious Views
Religion is what keeps the poor from murdering the rich.
Social Aptitude
Kit will never be the life of a party unless it is a role she has to play. Crowds make her skittish and being the centre of attention embarrasses her. One on one though, she can hold a conversation and does enjoy getting to know someone. Especially someone who has lived life and travelled.
Mannerisms
If she is bored, Kit will play with her dagger...throwing it in the air and catching it, spinning it on a table or sharpening it on a stone. It can be a little intimidating to watch.
Mostly reserved, she has chatty days where she will ask a lot of questions – on those days you may wish for the reserved Kit to reappear.
Hobbies & Pets
Mouse 1- died of old age
Mouse 2 - boot trample by bully
Mouse 3 - ate spoiled food
Mouse 4 - died of old age
Mouse 5 ran away - presumed dead
Mouse 6 died horrifically - Cat 1 : Mouse 0
Mouse 7 - Kit used him to check if the food was poisoned – it was
Mouse 8 - cushioned one of Kit's disastrous leaps
Mouse 9 is probably still alive but he did not like Kit changing her hair to purple and disappeared not to be seen again
Vera and Boo - MIA, last seen in Greyhawk
Carrot (too hard to talk about)
Speech
Kit's speech is not what you can call cultured and when she swears it can make a sailor blush.