What the hell did we put the engine? What happened to me?
First I hit Vatna, angry that he came back without my cloak from a while back. Which yeah, I was upset, but that was a while ago. And I wouldn't just punch someone. Apparently everyone was affected. We know what caused it, but that wasn't the weird thing. See, the object that was causing it was a lot like that crystal from my previous report that got tossed into our new engine. The weird part was when I used my ability to split off my shadow to find the copy of this crystal after we heard about it.
For a brief moment it was like... it was going to kill me. For a moment I felt that anger and rage like I had when I fought the mutated wyvern. A desire to tear something apart piece by piece. That something being myself. Why though? That shadow is supposed to be MY consciousness. Not a separate being. So why would it feel so separate? And yet... so familiar. Could it be that it wasn't just the crystal in that case? Could it have been me? There's always been something that has burned deep with my anger. Something that has always made me feel more comfortable when there are those capable of reigning me in are around. Maybe I'm overthinking it. Maybe just the idea we put something like that in our new engine is unsettling me.
Maybe it's not just that though. And why do the possibilities make me feel excited?
I don't know what to think... other than I hope I didn't hit Vatna too hard... also sent a canister down to hopefully contain the heart. Maybe the science team can figure it out.